Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Welcome back!

Well, here we are...new day, new home.  Wordpress was making me insane.  So...I changed.

Today is Christmas Eve.  I am not sure how I feel.  Today Evan will go with his father for the day - about 7 hours.  He's a bit apprehensive but he also gaunt seen his father's family in ages and I know they want to be with him so I'm sure he will have a terrific time.

Of course it will be quiet here.  No more constant singing of the Grinch song anyway!

Scott and I plan a quiet evening.  He has to work until 5pm.  Ick.  But then there will be pizza and wine and then wrapping and finally, the return of Evan.  It's even supposed to snow!

Tomorrow will be warm and happy, cookie and gingerbread filled, and topped by dinner with Scott's kids and the grandkidlets.  I'm looking forward really.

I will say this though...I am Jewish and I am so done with this!  How do you guys stand two whole months of this heady excitement?!  I admit I have enjoyed it for the most part.  The Sirius channel with 40s Christmas music, the lights decorating the neighborhood, the cookies I have made.  But wow, I realized yesterday I was done.  Bring on New Years Eve already!

My next holiday is Tu B'Shvat and I am looking forward to it followed by Purim then Pesach (Passover).  I realize my life is focused on the sacred Jewish year and while I certainly wish my friends of other cultures and faiths joyous, solemn, happy holidays and festivals...I am ready again for my own.

I think after a year of deep depression that this is a big step.  I am recapturing my self, who I am deep down and working hard to reestablish that.  

I am Israeli too after all and that is imprinted deep on my neshama (soul).  G-d answered me when I cried oh so many years ago and for that I will always sing His praises.

Merry Christmas to my friends celebrating and thank you for letting me be a small part of your joy.

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