tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3740969840966921327.post5824531893819833963..comments2014-03-23T12:12:09.454-07:00Comments on Yisraelit Interrupted: A barbed tongueEli4Short - Yisraelithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02224260166544350091noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3740969840966921327.post-27504965692977478972014-02-12T07:03:15.776-08:002014-02-12T07:03:15.776-08:00You're reading into my comment things that I d...You're reading into my comment things that I did not say. G-d is always there. G-d always forgives. Humans, not so much. The past is the past, you don't get a do over. But, G-d gives you the best thing ever. Another day to do good. Another day to get it right. Another day to learn something new about yourself and the world. It is one of his most precious gifts.Rachel Rosensternhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09239164634784203402noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3740969840966921327.post-10240463658871445322014-02-12T04:23:55.292-08:002014-02-12T04:23:55.292-08:00Rachel, you're right and I am glad you said th...Rachel, you're right and I am glad you said this. There is no one but me who is responsible for my sorry excuse of a life, my failure as a mother, wife and human and what has happened to me. Despite my pathetic attempts to try to make myself "feel better" the reality is that in ever can because I can never feel better about this nor should I. Don't think I am wallowing in ir even seeking attention by saying this - I'm not. I am past that. I ruined my life plain and simple. I probably am ruining my sons life by having him with me and exposing him to the bad reputation I will always have. I don't deserve forgiveness, compassion, or pity...I did this and I accept the yoke I have been given. I cannot make it better or repair it because I deserve it. I am simply a corpse being punished to live this nightmare every day of my life until either Gd has mercy in me and kills me or I say the hell with it and do it myself. Could the punishment for suicide be any greater than my life now? I think not. I have a plan and believe me, when the pain becomes unbearable (and we are almost there), I plan to complete it. Chat would Gd care anyway. He doesn't want me after all this anymore than u want myself. I started this blog and this topic to get support and honesty. Thank you for helping me have both. While it may sound facetious, it isn't. It's the sad truth if what I did to myself and what I need to do to finally have peace with it because the way things are, I never can. I am a bad Jew and that devastates me. In that vein, what is there to live for.Eli4Short - Yisraelithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02224260166544350091noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3740969840966921327.post-48620872591024477042014-02-11T18:04:52.159-08:002014-02-11T18:04:52.159-08:00Wow I haven't read this blog in a while. I...Wow I haven't read this blog in a while. I'm just going to throw this out there: This whole post is lashon horah. You should not be repeating what your Rabbi said or what your ex did or said. How can you talk about lashon horah and then go ahead and gossip away? Are you not held to the same standard of behavior that you expect from others? You acknowledge poor choices, how do you know that you didn't push these people away all on your own? I find it hard to believe that one person's gossip could cause an entire congregation to shun you. I agree that no one can judge you or really understand your situation but, you clearly did something that made these people very uncomfortable and they are not obligated to welcome you back with open arms.Rachel Rosensternhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09239164634784203402noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3740969840966921327.post-56898839250513441562014-01-30T19:22:45.795-08:002014-01-30T19:22:45.795-08:00What he said was harsh and so wrong. I have alway...What he said was harsh and so wrong. I have always been taught that you can't judge anyone. And even if you knew for sure that something is true you still can't judge them because noone is perfect. We are to love others, that's all. I'm sorry you are being treated this way. It's so unfair. I hope you find a group of people who will treat you as special as you are.Trishahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04051194196403204773noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3740969840966921327.post-58040372785055167402014-01-30T16:58:11.462-08:002014-01-30T16:58:11.462-08:00You are loved! Do not ever forget this.
You were ...You are loved! Do not ever forget this. <br />You were forgiven even before you were born.<br />You were entrusted with a special angel named Evan.<br />It is a measure of how much you are loved in heaven.<br />All you experienced as a child was in preparation for this honor.<br />Do not lose faith or belief.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06554268694677305657noreply@blogger.com